I'm just an ordinary girl doing ordinary stuff.

I just happen to be a single mom in the military.

My kids are part of the military too.

When I deploy, their heart breaks too.

They're strong little guys.

Being their mom is the most humbling experience I've ever had.

Follow the adventures

See if you can keep up with me as I serve my country holding my kids in my arms.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

The Idea Thief

So I've been writing this book for several years now.  It took me a couple of years to create some cool history for the characters, the settings, changing the plots, brainstorming ideas.  I've hit writers' blocks and I've had sporadic moments of AH-HAs.  And for the past few months I've actually been on a really good roll.  It's all coming together and it's so exciting!

So what do I do?  I tell people.  And one of the people I tell happens to be writing her own book, and well let's just say (and I'll allow myself to be catty just this once) that she doesn't have any originality in her plot.  It's very fairy-tale, Disney, romantic.  In fact, it piggy-backs off a Disney story/Brothers Grimm.  And maybe some young teenaged girl would find this book stuper awesome.  But it's not my style, it's way too sappy and boring.

I open my big mouth and I spill all my ideas because I'm so dang excited about them.  Months later, she tells me about her latest plot twists and adventures and GUESS WHAT... she IS USING MY IDEAS.  All of them.  The little.....

Anyway, I vented to a friend of mine and she gave me this evil idea, which I'm not going to use because I just really don't have the energy or the care to put the effort into it.  The idea is to feed the little idea thief really outrageous book ideas.  Something really wacky, but make it sound really incredible.  It's a good scheme, I have to admit.  But I would just rather be a meanie and call this girl out.  I guess that's the grown-up thing to do, right?

In the end, I'm not too worried because her writing skills are really immature and she isn't very creative anyway so I doubt she can pull it all off.

I just can't wait to finish mine so I can get it published, get it finished, and move on to the next one.

I guess this is me, having a human moment.  It's not very nice, and I'm sorry to anyone who is reading it thinking I'm pretty shallow.  This is what happens when the military sends me on a year-long short tour away from my kids, boyfriend, and pets.  I'm a little cranky.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Yup I'm Here

So I've been here for a couple of weeks now.  Korea.  There's a lot to write about and I'm not sure I can express everything tonight.  So I'll talk about what's weighing heavily on my heart right now.  I guess I'll start with a disclaimer:

The people are nice here.
Everyone has been so welcoming and I've been invited to outings and sports and things like that.  I haven't met a rude person yet.

Now onto the heavy part.  I AM SO RESTLESS.  I'm full of angst.  I have so much free time that I can hardly stand it.  So I got busy.  I filled my schedule with so many things to do.  But there's an empty feeling inside me and it's itching at me.  It's probably homesickness and kid-missing.  Yeah, that's probably it.

So what do I do about this?  I don't handle boredom well.  So I signed up for a couple of college classes and am awaiting the start date.  I'm finally really getting my hands dirty in the book I'm writing.  I'm actually feeling it and dissecting it and re-entering the world I've created.  So that should keep me busy.  Plus, I've been doing my daily bible reading and prayers.

But like a dang teething puppy, once I'm done with one thing I'm eagerly awaiting the next chew toy.  So I guess my challenge is this:  Patience.  Sigh.  Patience.

Keep me in your prayers, please.  I need some help here.

Friday, April 3, 2015


I love my life.
I thank God for everything He's given me.

I love my goofball kids.

... even if they make Walmart trips longer than they should be.

My dog is goofy too.

But I love him just the same.

Yay Weekend!

Patrick is coming to visit tomorrow for the weekend!  I'm so excited!  We're just going to hang out, spend our time enjoying each other, and talk about how much we're going to miss each other while I'm in Korea.

I know, I know.  Gross and sappy!  LOL I guess I'm just a little smitten with him.  And I've got a little spot in his heart, too.  So sappy is okay with me.

We're planning on taking the kids to a spring festival, watch my mom get water baptized at church, and eat lots of amazing home-cooked food.  We're going to play with my dog, harass my cat, and flee from my ferrets.

It's going to be amazing.

I can't wait to see this face!

Saturday, March 28, 2015

NCO Academy Grad!

I've spent the last 6 weeks in the Noncommisioned Officer Academy (NCOA). I admit that NCOA was not what I was expecting.  I thought it was going to be a cheesy, unrealistic let's-play-leader course. Instead, I've been studying ethical leadership, joint warfighting, professional development, negotiating, and many many more lessons!  I've given briefings on religious freedom and strategic initiatives. I've made friends.  I feel as if I've grown in just a month and a half. 

The days were jam packed with lessons, we were drinking from a fire hose. The nights were ridiculously late with homework. We had briefings and papers due each week. We slept 3-5 hrs a night. Weekends were blessings!!  I slept on the weekends. 

Caden had a dental issue during the week of my first test (gum swelling from slamming into another kid during rough playing). Instead of reviewing the night before the test, I was up all night helping him cope with pain. I failed that first test. That weekend, he got some antibiotics and I had my nose in my giant book for hours each day. I rocked the final test. I scored 10 pts above the average student. Thank you, God. 

Bruce was my audience during briefing practice. He'd stare at me in confusion as I gave him 3-5 minute briefings on religious freedom and strategic initiatives. If it wasn't for the wine, I'd have been laughing the whole time. 

My class graduated yesterday. It was a great day. My boss and two of my subordinates came to attend the ceremony. I was so proud! 

Now on to the next Air Force milestone: Korea. 

Monday, February 2, 2015


I've been really stressed lately. Preparing to start my leadership school AND the PCS is exhausting. Watching the troops move on without me is bittersweet. Trying to enjoy as much of my life as I can is incredibly challenging. The time is passing faster than I can keep up. And I'm just so tired.

I have been so relieved to hit the bed lately.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Korea Prep 2

My neighbor was kind enough to hook me up with an old friend of his who is stationed in Korea.  It was really nice being able to have another single mom connect with me about her experience.  She told me about the room I'd probably be living in and gave me some tips on what to bring, what not to bring.  She also let me know about the base and what the dining facilities were like there, so I'd probably need a crock pot. 

My feeling about Korea today is ... okay.  It feels good being able to talk with someone who can actually let me see, mentally, what I'm getting into. 

I received a phone call from a good brother-friend of mine, J Guy.  He was so upset that I'd be leaving my kids to serve this tour.  I was pretty encouraged by him calling to comfort me and share his brotherly love for me.  I felt loved.

I'm trying to get a hold of my friend, Daniel, who is currently struggling with a divorce.  He and his family are a beautiful thing and I always admired them as a unit.  To know that they are suffering so much hurts me and I'm so concerned for them all.  He hasn't written me back in almost a month and the last e-mail he wrote expressed how frustrated, angry, and hurt he is.  I sent him another e-mail today.  Tomorrow, I will try to call him.

Patrick and I are about to Skype tonight.  I sent him part one of two Christmas gifts and I want him to open it tonight.  Partly because I was worried when he told me that the FedEx guy tossed it onto his porch.  It's a wooden humidor!  I'm worried it might be broken and I want to be able to have him return it in time for him to receive part two-- eleven very fine Dominican cigars.  I couldn't get Cubans.  Anyway, I'm excited to see how he'll react if the humidor is in good shape.  He likes cigars.

Lastly, I hate keeping this Korea a secret from the kids.  I won't break, though.  I don't want to hang that over their heads during Christmas.  I'll wait til after my oldest boy's birthday in January.  Sigh.  I hate thinking of leaving them.  If you're a parent, you know the feeling.

I wish I could bring Bruce with me.  He's my companion, my friend.  He may be a dog but he's my favorite person aside from my human-family.  He looks at me with giant eyes and I hate knowing I won't see them for a whole year.

Finally, I just want to say that I praise God.  For everything.  He never wastes a hurt.  He never wastes tears.  He is my Father.  And I love Him so much.

Goodnight, all.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Korea Prep

So far, I have A LOT of things to do to prepare for this remote tour.  I have four different checklists.  I just prepared about fourteen powers of attorney.  I have to get an anthrax and smallpox vaccine, which is gonna SUUUUCK.  I guess it's about time though, right?  When I deployed a few years ago, I had to get a rabies and Japanese Encephalitis vaccine.  I might as well get the rest of the crazy ones. 

I'm not telling the kids about Korea until after the holidays and birthdays.  I've decided to use the time I have with them to create some awesome memories.  So far here's what I've done:

I convinced them I'm a ninja. 
Been trying to do this for a year, but my kids are too smart. 
We went to our first college football game.
I took them to the top of a mountain
We made our first-ever snowman!
We didn't have enough snow to make a big one.
We have Grandma here!
I'm going to keep trying to make opportunities for cool memories.  But more importantly, I'm just trying to make sure that we're spending good, quality time together.  They're worth it.
More to come on Korea prep.

Friday, December 5, 2014

The Dreaded E-mail

So once every few years of an enlisted person's life, they will receive an e-mail that makes them hold their breath.  The "From" is usually "System Generated E-mail" and you know that's always some kind of official notification e-mail box.  Well, I got my own e-mail last week shortly after returning home from work.

"Congratulations!  This is to notify you of your selection for a Permanent Change of Duty Station (PCS)..."

What??  I immediately remembered receiving a call for volunteers for Korea, Spain, Germany, Portugal, and England two weeks ago.  So Big AF didn't get enough volunteers and now here I am with an assignment.  The e-mail is a teaser.  It congratulates you, but doesn't say where you're going or when.  So I was left with anxiety and worry.

If I got Germany or England, it would be a long tour and I would get to take my kids and pets.  But we'd have to stay for 3 years.  And if I got deployed from there, I'd have to spend thousands of dollars to send my kids back to the CONUS to live with my family.

If I got a short tour like Korea, Spain, or Portugal, then I'd only have to serve 15 months.  But I would have to leave my children, pets and belongings behind.

Needless to say, I would've been unhappy with either.

I got to work and logged onto my computer.

Korea.  I got Korea.  

And guess what, I leave in just a matter of months.

So here we go again, Combat Boots Mama is leaving home without the kiddos.  Ahhhh.... such is military life.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Journal- 9 Nov

Wow, it has been a while since I wrote.  Things have been really happening over the last few months.

In the Summer...
The boys took swim class this summer.
I was super proud of them!

My brother and I joined forces to do the 
**Dirty Dash 2014**
We got really ... gross.
But it was so much fun!
And I got to spend time with my brother.

The boys got bucked off sheep at the rodeo.

Caden did a great job at rock climbing!

They spent lots of time outdoors!

Bruce and I spent lots of time outdoors, too.

Patrick and I got to spend time together... also outdoors.

Fall Is Now Here

Patrick, my handsome man, will be here in two days!!