Yup I'm Here

So I've been here for a couple of weeks now.  Korea.  There's a lot to write about and I'm not sure I can express everything tonight.  So I'll talk about what's weighing heavily on my heart right now.  I guess I'll start with a disclaimer: The people are nice here. Everyone has been so welcoming and I've been invited to outings and sports and things like that.  I haven't met a rude person yet. Now onto the heavy part.  I AM SO RESTLESS.  I'm full of angst.  I have so much free time that I can hardly stand...

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Awwww

I love my life. I thank God for everything He's given me. I love my goofball kids. ... even if they make Walmart trips longer than they should be. My dog is goofy too. But I love him just the sam...

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NCO Academy Grad!

I've spent the last 6 weeks in the Noncommisioned Officer Academy (NCOA). I admit that NCOA was not what I was expecting.  I thought it was going to be a cheesy, unrealistic let's-play-leader course. Instead, I've been studying ethical leadership, joint warfighting, professional development, negotiating, and many many more lessons!  I've given briefings on religious freedom and strategic initiatives. I've made friends.  I...

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Whew

I've been really stressed lately. Preparing to start my leadership school AND the PCS is exhausting. Watching the troops move on without me is bittersweet. Trying to enjoy as much of my life as I can is incredibly challenging. The time is passing faster than I can keep up. And I'm just so tired. I have been so relieved to hit the bed late...

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Korea Prep 2

My neighbor was kind enough to hook me up with an old friend of his who is stationed in Korea.  It was really nice being able to have another single mom connect with me about her experience.  She told me about the room I'd probably be living in and gave me some tips on what to bring, what not to bring.  She also let me know about the base and what the dining facilities were like there, so I'd probably need a crock pot.  My...

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Korea Prep

So far, I have A LOT of things to do to prepare for this remote tour.  I have four different checklists.  I just prepared about fourteen powers of attorney.  I have to get an anthrax and smallpox vaccine, which is gonna SUUUUCK.  I guess it's about time though, right?  When I deployed a few years ago, I had to get a rabies and Japanese Encephalitis vaccine.  I might as well get the rest of the crazy ones.  I'm...

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The Dreaded E-mail

So once every few years of an enlisted person's life, they will receive an e-mail that makes them hold their breath.  The "From" is usually "System Generated E-mail" and you know that's always some kind of official notification e-mail box.  Well, I got my own e-mail last week shortly after returning home from work. "Congratulations!  This is to notify you of your selection for a Permanent Change of Duty Station (PCS)..." What??  I immediately remembered receiving a call for volunteers for Korea, Spain, Germany, Portugal, and...

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Journal- 9 Nov

Wow, it has been a while since I wrote.  Things have been really happening over the last few months. In the Summer... The boys took swim class this summer. I was super proud of them! My brother and I joined forces to do the  **Dirty Dash 2014** We got really ... gross. But it was so much fun! And I got to spend time with my brother. The boys got bucked off sheep at the rodeo. Caden did a great job at rock climbing! They...

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Journal-6 July

Life has taken such a turn in the past week.  My mom and stepdad flew in from Guam last Friday.  Yay!  They're just awesome.  The kids adore them.  Then Patrick, a friend I've made and whom I've been "talking to" for a couple of months now, flew in on Saturday last week.  He's amazing.  A good Christian who reflects what Christians should.  I'm a little smitten, but I'm being really slow and cautious because...

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Mad

I'm lonely. And I find myself feeling angry sometimes. Not at the people who I've given up in order to ensure my children have a good life. Not at my parents for failing to teach me what a good relationship looks like. Not at my friends who stay in bad relationships just because it's better than being alone. I'm mad at myself. For failing to choose a good person to spend my life with. I wonder why do I sabotage myself? Why do I go into a relationship hoping that maybe he's "the one" when I know deep down inside that he's not? I never answer these...

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